At present is my birthday. It actually isn’t the birthday I had envisioned just a few weeks months in the past once I had anticipated stopping by the Donut Pub 14th Avenue on my strategy to work to get a pair dozen sugary treats to have fun with coworkers. Even throughout a 12 months when there isn’t a world pandemic, I are likely to go for smaller birthday celebrations. Years in the past, I gave up assembly massive teams of buddies at bars and eating places to have fun as a result of the stress of divvying up the examine proved to be an excessive amount of for me. This 12 months, with New York Metropolis nonetheless being below a lockdown, it was simpler for buddies to know why I didn’t need to collect en masse. Easy birthdays are my favourite and this 12 months will probably be simply that: a birthday cake made by my husband and an obscenely massive plate of nachos for dinner with a good bigger pitcher of margaritas.
I received’t say it’s feels comfy having individuals want me a “completely satisfied” birthday immediately as a result of there are such a lot of individuals on this nation and our world who’ve so little probability of being completely satisfied proper now. We have now misplaced over 100,000 individuals to COVID in america and anybody who says it’s “only a flu” apparently doesn’t appear to know that the flu would possibly kill 60,000 individuals over the course of a 12 months and that’s with a vaccine accessible. COVID has killed practically twice that many individuals in simply 4 months. How lots of the households of these victims are completely satisfied proper now? Few of them.
The individuals rioting in Minneapolis over the homicide of George Floyd and others protesting in Louisville, Kentucky over the taking pictures of Breonna Taylor are usually not completely satisfied immediately. They shouldn’t be. It’s a shame what’s taking place to individuals of coloration on this nation, senselessly being killed by law enforcement officials for no good purpose. Don’t they deserve happness?
Hong Kong seems to be is shedding it’s autonomy from China, twenty-seven years ahead of the agreed upon time and people residents are standing up for what they know is correct, protesting and rallying. Are they completely satisfied to be taking a look at restricted freedom of their future? No.
It’s my birthday, and quite than be completely satisfied, I select to be grateful this 12 months. Whereas I’m unhappy that yesterday I used to be laid off from a job I‘ve been at for 9 years, I’m grateful that I can nonetheless pay my payments and mortgage. Whereas I’m upset that I can’t go to my favourite Mexican restaurant Rosie’s on the Decrease East Aspect for birthday margaritas, I’m grateful that we’ve all of the makings for pomegranate Mezcal margaritas proper right here in our house. Whereas I’m wistful about not with the ability to go the New York Botanical Gardens throughout my favourite season, I’m grateful that my buddy Kendall introduced me a bouquet of flowers immediately and positioned them at our door.
That is an odd birthday to make sure, however every little thing in our world is odd proper now. We will’t management what’s taking place, however we’ve 100% management on how we reply to issues. So quite than be unhappy, upset or wistful, we are able to select to be grateful. And perhaps, simply perhaps after a few margaritas and a slice of chocolate cake with pink bitter cream frosting and sprinkles, I would enable myself a tiny little bit of happiness. There’s lots happening proper now and discovering happiness isn’t the simplest factor to do. Completely happy birthday? Perhaps. Grateful to be alive? Abso-fucking-lutely.